here are the lyrics to a song that struck me recently as i listened:

I trust in you for life to live, and air to breath.
Purity fills my lungs.
I no longer live in solitude.
No longer bound.
My heart beats with great devotion.
This is the start to a new beginning.
On my knees praying for mercy.
Hands raised high, humble and broken. Wanting your grace.
Wanting your security.
Memories of laying facedown, motionless, with such a hollow feeling inside.
Soon I would end this life I was living.
I am just a man with a heart and sinful hands.
I am a fallen victim.
Lord, show me the way. I ask of you Father, let my words be your words.
Let my thoughts be your thoughts.
To you, I give my praise.
Show me the way. Take me in your arms. Never let me go.
Lord, show me the way, as I give myself to you.
Never let me go.
Hold me with your everlasting love.


i'm getting the feeling that the life that i've known so far in life has been more shallow and empty than it was ever intended to be. the things that defined my life are becoming more and more empty: popularity. money. a "successful career." "happiness." i let these things shape how i go through life.
God is beginning to show me that there is a life that He designed that is so much more fulfilling. there is a relationship to be had with Him that will be more engaging, more satisfying, more completing, than anything here on earth.
if only it was easy to develop.

Lord, show me the way, as I give myself to you.
Never let me go.
Hold me with your everlasting love.