what do you go home to?

who are we, and what is it that we are striving for? have we succumbed to what the world around us whispers?
i was thinking tonight about the situation that i'm in right now; and it hit me that i am living out my life. in a sense, it is mine to shape and steer; mine to enjoy and live out fully.
am i who i want to be? what are the things that i want to do with my life, that i let culture or the people around me alter? am i just doing what seems cool, because that's what everyone does, or am i doing things because i want to do them? what is motivating my investments of time and energy?

it seems like these days, people work at being uniquely alike. putting energy into being a part of a social scene, part of an activist group, part of a circle of common political views. personal interests are pushed aside; you have to be doing what everyone else is doing. it is to the point now that many people don't even know what they really want; deep down inside they have lost the passion for the things hoped for as children.

1 corinthians 12.12-17. God has made us unique and that includes the passions and interests as much as our physical or mental or spiritual attributes. we cannot try to assimilate to the crowds around us. it is what we enjoy and pursue that makes us who we are.